无由来的低落心情

大家好，我不知道当你们看到这一贴时时什么时候，也许已经时过境迁，也许我已经心情康复了，可因为不能当众在脸书上把这些东西写上去，可能别人看到就大祸临头了，所以只好来这边写～

我的心情，很糟很糟，是那种很想大骂粗话的糟糕，很想就这么讨厌所有人的糟，谁都没情讲的那种无理的厌恶所有人。搞不清楚吧？别问我，因为我自己也弄不清楚自己为什么会陷入这么一个无厘头的情绪低落期。

做什么都没劲，不想早睡，不想早醒，又渴望可以一睡就不用起，很糟糕。

不想上课，不想做功课，不想看见那些教授，不想听他们讲一大堆听不懂的化学东西，很糟糕。

不想见任何人，不想应酬任何人，不想帮别人庆祝生日，吐出的祝福都是勉强，很糟糕。

想大哭一场，就一直沉迷于那些韩国悲剧，看到眼泪巴拉巴拉地流出来，眼睛都涩了但内心里却渴望去看一些喜剧可却提不起劲，很糟糕。

觉得自己很可悲，开始对那些爱情，友情，甚至自己的一些期待以及期望都渐渐幻灭，失去信心，很糟糕。

一大堆的糟糕，全被编排成一个理由出口，一个解释管道——压力，stresssss！

可是自己知道，不是的，不是这样的，只是对自己一成不变的生活厌倦了，不想再要了，所以压力、所以糟糕、所以情绪都是负面的。

什么都做不了的无力感......唉，现在在积极适应以及调试当中，如果成功了，再通知你们吧！掰掰！

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

自從畢業以後...... 親愛的朋友 自從畢業以後 我們不能時時在一起 好像電話、簡訊也沒有了 我們不能第一時間 分享彼此的快樂與不快樂 好像變得冷漠、沈默了 我們不能再一起去吃飯 一起說說笑笑 好像走出彼此的世界了 我們不能一起考試 一起努力、一起奮鬥 好像現在已經完全脫離過去了 我們不再有小矛盾 也不再笑得那麼肆無忌憚 好像身邊少了一些什麼 一切都不那麼重要了 我們不能一起犯錯、一起哭 好像那只屬於過去的不成熟 好像青澀的歲月 只留下斑駁的記憶了 我們都有了新的生活 新的環境、新的朋友 我們都在面對新的事 有新的人陪在我們身邊 分享著我們的喜怒哀樂 有時候也會想起 想起曾經的我們 有時候一個小小的物品 就會勾起一大串一大串的回憶 關於你 關於我們 甚至連哪一句話，都記得很清楚 時間改變了什麼？ 其實什麼都沒有 時間讓我們從過去走到現在 沖淡的是回憶 帶不走的也是回憶 親愛的朋友 感激我們能遇見 感謝你們陪我 走過那一段長長的路 那時的我 幼稚不成熟 那時的我 遇到一個又一個坑 是你們陪我成長 沒有丟下我 如今 大家都在不同的地方 不同的環境 漸漸地 漸漸地 不再聯繫 原諒我 不能時刻陪伴 原諒我 那份感情不再濃烈 原諒我 或許偶爾想起會感覺孤單 如果有一天 我們再遇見 人生的道路再度有了交集 麻吉們 好哥們 好姐們 親愛的朋友 那當初的一切 在心裡永遠不會變…

Gathering plan for CNY

我想了很久，然后呢我就发现我们平时的gathering好像都是出去玩，(我好像都没去过几次）。我就在想我们是不是该做点别的呢？可是呢我也不知道应该要怎样。所以我想请你们给点意见。还在地球的麻烦回复一下。

Les Miserable of 2012

Hi guys!!How r u??its been a while that i didnt update d blog myself.I felt sorry 4 u guys cz its always me who pestering u 2 complete tis 'mission'. I did make a few attempts,bt it didnt work n i dunno y...haha!!now im here again writing bout Les Miserable of 2012 n 2013,its not d movie im goin 2 write now(mayb later on),its d miserables tat i faced in 2012 n 2013.

2012, its supposed b d doomsday year,haha bt yet nth happen,its a total LIE!!!!Its a gud thing 4 me though cz i dun wanna die so soon,hahaha!!However,i think 2012 4 me or mayb some of the people around the world is full of tragic.u know y?? 1st,i gt my stpm results!!ooooo,tats a nt vy gud start,4 me la,cz my res were turned out to be terrible,hurmmm~~n working as a substitute teacher in a primary skul,maaaaaaan,tats a tough experience.i like playing wif d kids,bt teaching them,duh~its more difficult than u cm imagine,u really need lots n lots n lots of patience 2 deal wif kids.n d paper work 4 d education department,phewwww~~i really dunno wat d heck is goin on wif tis edu department or system in M,they change the system or syllabus lyk almost every week,damn it!!its lyk when u tot u finished tat freaking troublesome docs ,then the next week u might need 2 redo it,wtf!!when u ask d officers about d syllabus or format of d docs,they r not even sure~~Halo!!tis is nt a secretary department ok,they r teachers who need 2 educate d younger generation,education is nt a game!d system is really epic fail la!!so guys,u musnt blame d teachers 4 nt teaching (mayb some la),it happens bcoz d stupid edu system in somewhere u know~~

looks familiar rite??when trolling ppl...u dun say??hehe.... Sooooo,tats my 1st official working experience,nt d worst la~i guess cz i gt 2 improve my BM~~The next thing is making choices 2 enter which university...waaaa,tis 1 really cracked my head out!! Translation in USM vs Eng Lit in UM...aigooo~~i chose these 2 totally based on my stpm res,of cz im interested in it bt nt much la,since u guys noe i always wanted 2 study law,its hard 2 gt law wif such terrible res n im,so,choose wat u cn afford la...Translation and eng,wat will u choose??i asked almost every1 i know,bt later it became so confusing tat i cnt even choose!!USM gt d APEC status,so lots of scholars wanna go there.its oso located in Penang,nt far from home n lots of nice food there...aaargh!!i tot of goin there bt i dun really like tat course,moreover it will b taught in BM,im nt vy gud in BM,so...while choosing between these 2,there's a story behind it,hehe,im nt sure whether ive told u guys b4,oo,nvm,i'll tell u guys again la...

exactly 2 paths!!! I ended up choosing Eng Lit in UM,which is where im studyin now...UM!!

To be or not be,that's a question... Hurmm,1 of d most prestigious university in Malaysia i guess,which is in KL.Its my 1st time 2 study a place far away from home(well nt vy far since i was in Japan b4) ,time 2 be independent!!im always tat independent,so no probs!!wakaka...The orientation week is d most HORRIBLE week ever!!!!woke up at 4am slept at 1am,wohoooo~~run around d campus lyk an idiot,then the cheering,shout until our voices broke,exhausting week.Then one of the worst thing happened in my life.i still need tym 2 get over it,how long?u ask?i dun know...the rest of my life?maybe...its hard,u know,aiya,dunno wat 2 say.... *awkward*

i think tats it 4 Les Miserable(nt tat miserable compared 2 d movie,bt still nt a nice year) in 2012...i dun really lyk tat year,bt im happy 2 enter UM n meet new frens in d Eng Department,vy gud frenz indeed...will talk bout it (n movies!!!!)in d next post!! C YA!!!

Username...haiz

After so many days, finally i manage to come back to here.Han, if after ten years we meet at France, do that mean that in between i am not suppose to meet u guys.I think i mean it that way.So, what to do now, i need to keep my promise right. I cannot meet u guys for 10 years.I will miss u guys....hahaha.....